Not working for the time has taken its toll. On the outside, you still feel you're useful and do you best to restore your activities to what you think resembles your previous activity. But once you sit down and question yourself, the hard reality comes barging in and because of the fear, you will try to deny them and conveniently paint yourself a new image. Its a depressing cycle. You have a lot to do yet, there is nothing you can start because you think you have thought too much. Moreover, there is the issue of money to sustain the family and pay the bills.
It won't be long when the truth comes knocking again.
|Man, this sucks|